falling a p a r t & fallingtogether

This semester has been one of the most difficult semesters I've ever tackled. I've literally been hanging on by the seat of my pants flying through everything, and I have to admit a change of pace would be nice. I've learned SO much in just four months, I've done things I didn't think I could do, I've done some things that I regret just a bit, and I've learned that a little passion for one subject can take one a long way.

Here's just a run down of some stuff that's happened:

 At the beginning of the semester I kissed my crown good bye. I crowned a new Miss American Indian USU, it was a bitter sweet experience but, goodness, she is amazing. Panicked about losing my very best friend as she embarked on a relationship of her own, spent an entire semester in my Advanced Creative Non-Fiction class focusing on one 20 page essay, that was so HARD to write that it consumed my every waking thought. I got my first traffic ticket and in my first car accident, picked parts from junkyards.   Then I experienced a severe financial panic attack when a surprise tuition fee popped up on my student account which made it so I couldn't register for my Senior classes. I literally thought my life was falling apart. And at that very moment I asked for a priesthood blessing from my AMAZING HOME TEACHERS.  Here's what I learned.

sure, things fall 

a p a r t.

but sometimes...

theyfalltogether.

I was recognized for my poetry. At the close of the Fall semester I submitted a portfolio to USU's Creative Writing Contest "Scribendi" and I placed first in their Undergraduate Poetry category and I got published.

Did you read that? I ACTUALLY GOT PUBLISHED. This is literally my dream come true! I had a goal to be published in something with anything by the time I was 20. Check! And to top it all off I got to read my poetry in front of my peers and an amazing little cluster of my best friends and supporters. It wasn't until I stood before the group of my peers that I realized that, they were all that really mattered to me. My family and them.I feel like even though this semester has been really hard, I've learned a lot. I've learned a lot about real friends and a whole lot about the importance of my family. About appreciating those in your life and the adventures you share with them.

Speaking of adventures- I discovered a deep love for nature and rock climbing out doors with freezing palms, jagged rocks, and the clear ceiling-less blue sky. I made new friends that had a zeal for adventure and oh, boy, I hope that desire in me never fades because I love that prickle in my fingers, that quiet contemplation of how to paint my life with words, the sheer panic of not knowing if I'll get my papers in on time and staying up until 7 am just because I have really good company in the midst of writing a wretched paper. I've learned a lot this semester.

A little about how things fall a p a r t.

&

a lot about thingsfallingtogether